musings

You know, sometimes I wonder why I am writing this Blog.  Sometimes it feels like it just flows right out of me and sometimes I publish something and think what the hell did I just say.
I am an extremely private person.  I have been ballroom dancing for 30 years and before Facebook, I bet none of these friends in the dance world would have even known I have children.  When I have talked about them in the past I was always met with pity and it infuriated me, so I just stopped talking.  Then when Mike came into my life I started opening up even more.  I sometimes think now that I've become a self indulgent oversharer.
I feel like I still have a lot more to say though.  I suppose if I knew that no one would ever read these, I would probably still write them.  So what the heck..... I'll keep writing them.
I started out talking about Mike with these and he is definitely in my mind still when writing, but these next few will probably get into my own life and family a little more.  I feel like that has been rattling in my head lately so I might as well put it out there.
So for those of you reading them, I hope you are reading them with my intent of just sharing what a wonderful and painful journey this has all been.  And that even after death, I am still Mike's girl.